I have, in many ways been dreading today. Whilst I was beginning to feel relief that my 'day' has almost arrived, I knew that there would be difficult moments. This morning I went to the office 'just as usual' but of course it wasn't just another day. I spent a couple of hours fiddling around with necessary stuff, knowing that eventually I would be saying goodbye to my friends and colleagues. I don't consider myself a particularly emotional person, but I just knew that this would be a painful farewell. I suppose I've become acutely aware of my own frailties and vulnerability, and I feel really saddened by this whole episode. Sure enough when I finally came to leave I had great difficulty in suppressing my feelings, and there ensued a fairly touching departure! It's not that I think I've left for good, but there is a very distinct closing of various doors on parts of my life. I fully expect to return to work, fit and well, and to resume my usual functions.
On the positive side I have been hugely touched and encouraged by the support of my family, friends and colleagues and I will carry all your thoughts with me as I hand over to the medical team tomorrow. All I have to do now is turn up and leave the rest to them!!!!!!
This is not the end.........
On the positive side I have been hugely touched and encouraged by the support of my family, friends and colleagues and I will carry all your thoughts with me as I hand over to the medical team tomorrow. All I have to do now is turn up and leave the rest to them!!!!!!
This is not the end.........
